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THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« on: December 16, 2018, 10:25:02 AM »
Feel free to track and stuff. My other storage was getting too crowded so I'm gunna move a few things over here and start new.
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #1 on: December 16, 2018, 10:25:46 AM »
ALL THE SURVIVORS SINGING IN THE RAIN



SHINE LIGHT INTO DARKNESS
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #2 on: December 16, 2018, 10:26:22 AM »
Sheogorath's Redemption Arc.

-- Sheogorath starts to get nightmares about the people he has killed. He sees their faces haunting him in his dreams. At first, he he simply feels agitated about his restlessness, but as the dreams continue, he begins to feel a hint of guilt that develops over time.

-- Sheogorath has a near death experience. Not only does this make him feel vulnerable, but while he lays there unconscious, he also has a vision of hellfire, and quite suddenly realizes that his very soul could could be threatened as a result of his actions. Coupled with his newfound guilt from his dreams, Sheogorath pledges to make up for his foul deeds and redeem himself.

-- Eventually, Sheogorath realizes that remaining in the Badlands isn't doing him any good. He's surrounded by reminders of his former self, and things that tempt him to return to that lifestyle. So, Sheogorath leaves the Badlands.

-- Hoping to apologize to Flintlock, and make up for what he has done to them, Sheogorath will travel into the mountains. But, he'll end up being attacked by a wild dog or wolf, which will heavily injure his leg, preventing him from walking. He falls off a cliff during the attack, losing his memory. Crippled and frightened, Sheogorath is hopefully allowed to remain in Flintlock.

-- Sheogorath essentially grows used to Flintlock ways, and enjoys the atmosphere. He pleads to the current leader to allow him to stay. Whether or not he can will depend on the leader's choice themselves, but my personal hope is that he will be permitted to join after spending so many weeks there recovering from his injury, getting to know the members, and perhaps even making friends, and proving that he has Flintlock's best interests in mind.

-- If Sheogorath is forced out of Flintlock he will likely die.

-- If Sheogorath is permitted to join Flintlock, he will continue to better himself and will spend the rest of his days there, helping out the group however he can. Whether or not his memory returns is undecided.
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #3 on: December 16, 2018, 10:45:05 AM »
Some things Sheogorath deals with that I need to integrate more often into his posts. Please note that I have every single thing on this list, so I have personal experience with each developmental and mental issue listed.

-- Sheogorath is high functioning autistic. I've mentioned this before in his past, but he's so high functioning (unlike me lol) that I never bother putting it in his tags because anyone who doesn't have autism or doesn't associate with autism would not be able to recognize the signs he displays because he's not low functioning so much that he often displays autistic traits. Some traits that he does display include:

     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Stimming. Sheogorath will tap objects, and rock back and forth depending on mood.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Sheogorath has a habit of taking things literally. Tell him a joke and he might not understand it!
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He can't really read human emotion that well. He's not good at reading facial expressions.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Sheogorath can be socially awkward at times if you catch him off guard, and while he rarely stutters, he possibly will if he's faced with an unexpected conversation.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Sheogorath has trouble displaying proper responses. He may laugh when others are in pain, even if he doesn't think it's funny, simply because he can't control how he reacts.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He can get overwhelmed with too much sound, light, or other stimuli and while rare, he can and will have a meltdown.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Certain textures are favored over others. Sheogorath is calmed by soft fur, but gets agitated by sandpaper and the feel of beans in his mouth.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Sheogorath obsesses over certain things, like dinosaurs.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He will repeat things over and over again, like closing a door multiple times before feeling satisfied.

-- Sheogorath has a learning disorder. He has something called discalculia, meaning he has a learning disability in math.

     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ A bit like dyslexia, Sheogorath will often see numbers backwards, or not in the correct order.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He is unable to count money.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He cannot tell time from a clock that doesn't directly display the time.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Sheogorath is incapable of even the most basic mathematics, such as addition, or multiplication. If he can't count it on his fingers, he can't do it.

-- Sheogorath is bipolar. He displays common traits related to this illness. 

     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He has mood swings.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ During manic episodes, Sheogorath feels as if he can do anything, and often believes himself a god.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ During depressive episodes, Sheogorath feels guilt, loneliness, and overall insecurity.

-- Sheogorath has PTSD. After his time in the Group of Captors, and Scarecrow's attack, Sheogorath has minor PTSD.

     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Certain triggers give him flashbacks.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Triggers include rattling chains, hot iron, and smiley faces.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ Sneaking up behind Sheogorath can cause him panic and flashbacks and will cause him to react aggressively.
     Ã¢â‚¬Â¢ He struggles to trust others due to memories of how he has been manipulated in the past. 
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #4 on: December 16, 2018, 11:01:19 AM »
Thread Outline: A list of future threads I'm planning.

-- Sheogorath has a nightmare about the people he has killed.
-- Sheogorath finds a dinosaur stuffed animal, which becomes his new best friend.
-- Sheogorath plays Kit's old piano.
-- Another nightmare. Sheo starts to feel guilt.

-- Sheogorath has a meltdown when the casino grows particularly loud during a bad storm.
-- Someone sneaks up behind Sheogorath and scares the shit out of him and he attacks.
-- Another nightmare.
-- Sheo takes Twister to the beach.
-- Sheo takes Harley out for a ride and is attacked by a group of bandits. Near death experience. Sheogorath sees hellfire in his dreams while unconscious and pledges to redeem himself.
-- Sheogorath realizes the Badlands is a bad influence on him and isn't helping or supportive of his decision in any way.
-- Sheogorath leaves the Badlands.
-- Sheogorath, seeking to apologize to FL, travels into the mountains, but gets attacked by a wolf, which cripples him.
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #5 on: December 16, 2018, 11:12:35 AM »
BEG FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #6 on: December 16, 2018, 12:31:47 PM »
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #7 on: December 17, 2018, 01:02:40 PM »
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person. There's many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning. I never meant to do so things to you, and so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know; I found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start over new, and the reason is you. I found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know. A reason for all that I do, and the reason is you.

That's The Way It Is
He who drinks from the deep waters, may he know the depths of the well. The many miles we walk. The many things we learn. The building of a shrine only just to burn. That's the way it is.

May I? Stand Unshaken?
May I stand unshaken amidst the clash of worlds. I can't quite remember just what guided me this way. May I? Stand Unshaken? Amidst the clash of worlds.

Viva La Vida
I used to rule the world, seas would rise when I gave the word. Now in the morning I sleep alone, sweep the streets I used to own. I used to roll the dice, feel the fear in my enemy's eyes. Just a puppet on a lonely string, oh who would ever want to be king?
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #8 on: December 17, 2018, 02:41:34 PM »
Neutral Good. "A neutral good character will keep his word to those who are not evil and will lie only to evil-doers. He will never attack an unarmed foe and will never harm an innocent. He will not use torture to extract information or for pleasure. He will never kill for pleasure, only in self-defense or in the defense of others. A neutral good character will never use poison. He will help those in need and works well alone or in a group. He responds well to higher authority until that authority attempts to use the law to hamper his ability to do good. He is trustful of organizations as long as they serve his utilitarian purpose. He will follow the law unless more good can come from breaking the law. He will never betray a family member, comrade, or friend. Neutral good characters are indifferent to the concepts of self-discipline and honor, finding them useful only if they promote goodness." -- the alignment system
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #9 on: December 18, 2018, 11:31:15 AM »
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #10 on: December 18, 2018, 06:27:23 PM »
If Sheo gets outcast from Flintlock into the wilderness to ultimately die from his injuries, this will be the the song I play for his final thread. I'll cry for sure lmao.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yag41F7eCLU

Your hands upon
A deadman's gun, and you're
Lookin' down the sights
Your heart is warm
And the seams are torn, and they've
Given you a reason to fight
And you're not gonna take
What they've got to give
And you're not gonna let 'em take your will to live
Because they've taken enough
And you've given them all you can give
And luck won't save them tonight
They've given you a reason to fight
And all the storms you've been chasin'
About to rain down tonight
And all that pain you've been facin'
About to come into the light


ALSO THIS ONE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGVQJKgqgY8

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #11 on: December 18, 2018, 07:31:13 PM »
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SiylvmFI_8

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard, at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
And maybe empty
Oh, and weightless, and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #12 on: December 18, 2018, 07:46:01 PM »
Post Traumatic Retrograde Amnesia: The subject suffers from a serious brain injury, resulting in trauma which may result in amnesia which can be temporary or permanent. PTA can wipe past memories, and is most likely to wipe the memory of how the injury itself was caused. The patient may forget their own name and parts of their past, but still retain information such as knowing how to walk. They may recognize friends and family, but struggle to recall their names or memories of them. PTA may cause future problems, such as short term memory loss, and general forgetfulness that impacts daily life. Memory loss may be temporary depending on the severity of the injury, allowing the subject to recover lost memories of their past.
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #13 on: December 20, 2018, 01:52:10 PM »
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SECOND CHANCE home for the outcast
Welcome to Second Chance, an institute for the outcasts, the desperate, and those that require help to survive in the cruel world that has arisen since the fall of the old modern world. In this peaceful, neutral group, second chances are a part of daily life, from the freedom to move on from a life of cruelty and violence, to the solace of finding a home that welcomes people regardless of disability or mental health.

Second Chance lives in a mansion deep within a forested landscape surrounded by protective rocky hills. The mansion itself may be described as a bit of a modern castle, vast in size, with various spacious bedrooms, a pleasant courtyard with stone tables and cobbled paths, lined with gardened flowers, a church for worship provided for those that need it, a cafeteria where food is served and meetings are held, an exercise room with exercise equipment, therapy rooms, and a lobby that has been turned into a grand living room with the warmth of a fire to heat the structure in the cold of bitter winter.

Exterior Mansion Reference

A dirt road leads through the rocky hills to the mansion itself, providing easy access for joiners and merchants and visitors alike. Stables are available on the grounds, along with shelters for other exterior kept pets. The landscape itself is mostly thick forest, laced with streams and a pleasant lake that provides a constant water source, and perfect for hunting as a source of food. Outside of the forest is rolling fields that provide rich farmland, where various fruits and vegetables are nurtured into life. Livestock and other animals are also bred in the farmland. Dogs that are trained as therapy animals and bunnies that are bred as emotional support animals are maintained here as well, and provided to residents in need of them.

The weather of the group is warm in summers and mild in winter months. Rarely will it snow, but it isn't entirely unheard of.

The Rules include:

• No murder, thievery, or other crime against your fellow members shall be committed without risk of punishment.

• Betrayal of any kind that endangers the group as a whole will result in exile.

• Raids on the group will blacklist the attacking group from participating in events with Second Chance.

• Second chances are to be granted to everyone, including those seeking to free themselves from their violent and criminal pasts, the mentally ill, the abused, the recovering addicts, the developmentally and physically disabled, and anyone else in need of a home.

• While second chances are provided, those that actively begin to endanger the group may not be permitted to stay.

• No drugs or alcohol is permitted and will be confiscated upon discovery.

• Abuse of residents by aids or any other rank, including other residents, is strictly forbidden and is punishable by exile.

• Any type of bullying is against the rules and will be punished.

• Visiting other groups is permitted, but starting trouble with them will result in punishment.

• All aids may hold therapy sessions of any type, mental, developmental, or physical. Residents may host support groups for their fellow members.

• Residents are not restricted from advancing through the ranks and may even choose to become Aids.

• Hunting for sport is strictly forbidden.

• Encouraging bad behavior or addiction of any kind is never permitted.

• Those that are violent due to mental illness and cannot be considered responsible for their behavior must be isolated from the rest of the group in a private section if the mansion where comfortable rooms are provided, along with constant supervision and care. When an individual proves capable of controlling themselves, they may be permitted to join the rest of the group.

• Weapons are not permitted to be accessible to residents, however aids and other ranks may carry them for protection.

• Wheelchairs and canes are to be provided without hesitation to the needy.

• Therapy and emotional support animals will not be provided to individuals incapable of caring for them. Abused or neglected pets will be provided a better home immediately.

• All members are to be treated with respect.

The Ranks include:

• Director [hp]: The leader of the group.
• Co-Director [hp]: Second in command.
• Advisors [s/hp]: Aids that have proven themselves loyal and kind.
• Representatives [s/hp]: Residents that had proven themselves loyal and kind.
• Aids: Those that hold therapy sessions and assist in the care of residents.
• Residents: Those that require care of some kind.

There are many customs and events provided for members of the group. These may include contests, such as poetry contests, art contests, dance contests, and talent shows. Group therapy sessions may be held at any time by aids or higher ranks. Swimming under supervision provides the potential for fun water related events in the warmer months. Therapeutic horse trail rides are often held for the residents and aids alike. Feasts with other allied groups or in response to birthdays will be held. All major holidays such as Christmas will likely be celebrated. According to custom, therapy dogs and emotional support rabbits are provided to those that prove capable and willing to care for these animals.
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Re: THE REASON IS YOU [storage 3.0]
« Reply #14 on: December 20, 2018, 04:22:52 PM »
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