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« Reply #15 on: April 08, 2019, 04:20:14 PM »
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« Reply #16 on: April 08, 2019, 05:00:33 PM »
There was a terrifying, beautiful power in the sea. It was a harmony of death and destruction // life and creation. Giver and taker of life, it bent to no man's will. Provider of joy, provider of terror. In this, Santos had found a home as a youth. The man stood alone on the coast, eyes closed as he tilted his crown to bask in the sun's golden spillage. The wind brushed his dark curls from his brows, as if greeting the familiar face. He felt like a young boy again. His shoulders sunk in ease, lashes parting to gaze upon the sunlight-brushed ocean. He had missed this- his solace.

The striking blue waves made him forget his red-stained memories. The warmth of the sun made him forget cold, stiff skin. The crashing of tides drowned out the sobbing, the gunshots, the shouting. In this scene, Santos had returned to the sanctity of his home. In this fantasy, the protagonist got his happy ending. But this was no cinematic, feel-good film. This was the story of a marked boy, doomed from creation, death and undoing imprinted upon him instead.

Golden irises flickered to the rocky side, sensing an all too familiar presence. His dearly loved ghost. The blonde phantom stood rigid // stood silent. Red stained eyes peered at Santos blankly, providing him only that presence. The two mirrored one another; posture stilled, gazes empty. No words were exchanged between the two, neither mental nor verbal. There was nothing to be said.

The sound of movement swayed the man's attention, head snapping towards the source. A figure approached in the distance, climbing the incline that had previously kept them both from sight of one another. Santos stood silent a moment, grip tightening upon the wire-clad bat hanging from his backpack. He was not naive to the reputation of the Badlands. Perhaps it was not wise of Santos to delve into a life of aggression and violence again, and perhaps that was why his beloved phantom had grown so cold towards him. But Santos could not shed the ways of himself so easily.

”I’m looking to join.” He spoke, looking back to the rocks // his dearly loved ghost had vanished.
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« Reply #17 on: April 09, 2019, 09:46:27 AM »
character note:

santos isn’t inherently a bad/good alligned character. his background is very much essential to who he has become, and the environment in which he developed played a large part in his own personal development. it is not that he enjoys violence/anger, but it is that it was a outlet for him as a child. as a boy, he would lash out, and often get into quarrels with others, expressing his anger of the situation in which he was placed. there was little he could do about his situation then, so if he must endure it, he would do so with strong rebellion and clear disdain. as he grew into his teenage years and found his family in a street gang, santos discovered not only was violence/aggression an outlet for him, but he was simply good at it. wielding anger as a weapon was a second nature, and it was one he began to develop enough to turn into a skill. nowadays, he allows himself to be on the defense rather than offense, and although the dog no longer bares his teeth nor attacks on que, one should not pet him nor lure him with cause. santos is not a tamed animal, but a tired one.
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« Reply #18 on: April 09, 2019, 05:01:04 PM »
should santos b a medic? at least have medical skills?
i think there’s a bit of a need for one accustomed to the blackout setting/resources. maybe it would make sense if he kinda devoted himself to that after he ended up on his own, considering he feels as if perhaps he had known enough medically, he could’ve saved ryder, his now ghost.
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« Reply #19 on: April 09, 2019, 05:52:15 PM »
   

{ let me be who i'm meant to be }

santos castellano a man who does not know when or how to stop. confined to ferity and ruination since adolescence, he knows nothing but. tenderness was wholly found in fleeting moments, such meagerness leaving him yearning before bitterness befell him. he stopped chasing what he was taught to be foolish charity, instead conforming to the brutish experiences he hailed from. inhumanity achieved progress, and so his means were edified. a being stripped of benignity and naivety, hardened and thrown forth.

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age twenty nine, though his maturity far exceeds.
zodiac he was born october 29, making him a scorpio.
birthplace {liquid space} on the coast, in a small, poor city
origin his parents were born and raised in spain, though moved to america shortly before santos was born.
height / weight 6'4 ft. / 220 lbs.
build tall and muscular
appearance warm complexion, dark wavy hair, full beard, dark eyes, long lashes, angular features, heavily scarred, very rugged. has faded, low quality stick and poke tattoos covering him face-feet, clearly done by himself or others as a teenager; face tattoos are small and consist of crosses, dots, tiny angel wings, and tally marks. his chest is filled of scars, small tally marks representing each life he took.

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A Guide to Santos' Twisted Worship of Saints santos does not identify as a catholic or as a member of any specific religion, though he does believe in small ways of worshipping saints. he believes in these individuals’ powers and their spirituality, and honors them according to what they stand for. for example, santos may often pray to certain saints or speak their names to guide him.

La Santa Muerte "Saint Death," a condemned saint by the Church, she is a patron saint for all criminals. Santos was/is a criminal, and while indulging in such activities past and present, Santos believes she brings good luck and protection.

Saint Julian The patron saint of murderers. Santos believes he protects them from danger and death and provides luck in manhunts. Though limited, Santos does kill those he deems 'bad,' and thus prays to Saint Julian to guide him and provide him protection.

Saint Joaquina Vedruna de Mas Patron saint of exiles and against the death of children. Santos, being an exile of many places/groups, believes she provides guide when he is lost. Because of his devotion to her, he strongly advocates the protection and pardoning of all children.

Saint Teresa of Ávila Patron saint of sickness and of those in need of grace. He prays to her when one of his own is ill, or when he finds himself in need of grace for whatever personal reason.

St. Jude Thaddeus Patron saint of lost causes, also known in Mexico as the patron of criminals and prisoners. She represents a hope for Santos and offers him a forgiveness and he believes she is his pardoner for his sins and will guide him in the afterlife.

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strength ( 9/10 ) , willpower ( 9/10 ) , dexterity ( 9/10 ) , intelligence ( 8/10 ) , wisdom ( 7/10 ) , charisma ( 4/10 ) , agility ( 6/10 ) , stamina ( 8/10 ) , endurance ( 9/10 ) , teamwork ( 2/10 ) , stealth ( 6/10 ) , reaction time ( 8/10 ) , humor ( 4/10 ) , fortitude ( 9/10 ) , faith ( 2/10 ) , melee combat ( 8/10 ) , armed combat ( 9/10 ) , leadership ( 4/10 )

cowardly
energetic
forgiving
charitable
authentic
chaste
humble
naive
cautious
restrained
trusting
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brave
lethargic
vengeful
selfish
deceitful
lustful
boastful
experienced
daring
bold
suspicious

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history loss struck santos at the mere age of two, taking from him the life of his mother. without his father in the picture, and no immediate family able to take him in, santos was placed in foster care. his young age allowed him a high likelihood to be adopted by a family, but for reasons undisclosed to him, time and time again, any attempts to adopt him were unfulfilled. as he aged, this percentage diminished. time and time again, santos was sat down and told the couple he had spent so much time with could not give him a home as they had told him. due to this, the young boy began to grow frustrated and confused, and feeling powerless, santos lashed out. he began to receive punishment for bad behavior in school, for getting into quarrels with the other children, and overall performing below average in terms of education and behavior. his chances continued to shrink. as he grew older, it all worsened, both his performance in school and his proneness to fights and arguments. santos would often come home with black eyes or busted lips, carrying within him a fire. the boy would never create a lasting/true bond with any foster parents or siblings he stayed with, seeing them all as temporary stops. any attempts to build a relationship with santos would result in him pushing away and becoming even more distant. due to this lack of any form of parental relationships, santos idolized his biological mom, which in turn led to santos' fascination with her religion and her language. this is where he read about spanish roman catholic saints and began to look up to them, as well as where he began to study spanish religiously.
as santos entered his teenage years, he began to build true friendships with a group of boys in his area that he would walk home from alternative school with. like him, they were prone to the same violence and all had stories similar to his own. at this same time, santos had begun attempts to run away from his foster homes, being placed in worse and worse ones in terms of neglect and disarray. he was caught time and time again, but by the age of 15, santos was pronounced a missing child. he found refuge in the friends he had made, who he discovered to be apart of a larger street gang. he stayed with them, and despite their violent and aggressive lifestyle, santos found true loyalty and brotherhood among them. they became his family. santos began to live in a life of drugs, sex, gang warfare, and pure aggression. he became accustomed to it quickly, and soon learned he had a certain skill for violence. it was not simply that he enjoyed it, but santos was inherently good at it.
when santos was 18, the blackout hit. the gang was able to easily adapt, having already grown accustomed to a life of crime and survival. soon, though, the issue of desperation seeped into their plans. droughts of resources became a threat, and one night they planned to raid a convenience store within a rival gang's territory. despite it being thoroughly planned, the night quickly turned sour. warfare broke out, and in the end, the rival gang raided the store instead after shooting 5 members of santos' group down. of them all, santos was the lone survivor of the group that attacked. of these losses, ryder was one of them, santos' closest friend/love interest. the two were extremely close, and santos loved ryder, though he had not explored his sexuality yet, so the duo's love for one another was cloaked and unspoken. santos sat in the destroyed convenience store with ryder as he bled out, surrounded by his dead and dying friends. after this, santos became reckless and dangerously violent, so much so that one night, the remnants of the gang abandoned him, seeing him as a threat to their safety. ever since, santos has been fending for himself in the apocalypse of the world, before joining the badlands.
character traits distant, detached, introverted, often quiet, defensive, protective, territorial when close w something/someone, proactive, cautious, observant, fairly close minded, capable of apathy, easily stirred/angered, likes to think he’s driven by logic but when vulnerable very much driven by strong emotion

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misc. character notes - Haunted by the spirit of his now deceased best friend/love interest, Ryder. Santos stayed with Ryder as he slowly bled out to death after a desperate planned raid by the gang that failed, resulting in the loss of all those Santos was close with. He is haunted by his spirit due to the guilt and unfullfillment he attaches to Ryder's death.
- has a pet california kingsnake, a white snake with large black spots along her head. santos found her three years ago when rummaging through an abandoned home. he wandered into what looked like a young boy's room, finding a habitat on the dresser. he expected to find a dead animal of some sort, but instead found kyros. she was thin and visibly tired, but as soon as santos approached and opened the enclosure, she perked up. after finding her some fresh food and water, kyros was quick to show affection. ever since, they've been together.
   - kyros is oftentimes actually nestled in the pocket of santos' backpack, though she often slithers out from time to time to nestle herself around his neck/shoulders.

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Re: angels on my side | journal/dump
« Reply #20 on: April 10, 2019, 03:45:34 PM »
note: add more history in the ten year gap u have girl. santos had to have experienced more than finding a snake and meeting a weird man named badger. throw in some more angst, y not
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« Reply #21 on: April 11, 2019, 09:30:40 AM »
note: write abt santos’ ability to build relationships. what kind of people does he get along w? who tend to be his friends? what draws the line at cutting off people? is he confrontational when a friend does something he does not agree w? what rubs him the wrong way? what does he look for in a partner? is he even capable of romantic feelings when he’s seeing ryder’s ghost everywhere? past relationships? should he be promiscuous or open to one night stands? is he affectionate? etc.
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« Reply #22 on: April 15, 2019, 03:02:01 PM »
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« Reply #23 on: April 15, 2019, 09:35:29 PM »
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« Reply #24 on: April 16, 2019, 04:56:28 PM »
loss struck santos at the mere age of two, taking from him the life of his mother. without his father in the picture, and no immediate family able to take him in, santos was placed in foster care. his young age allowed him a high likelihood to be adopted by a family, but for reasons undisclosed to him, time and time again, any attempts to adopt him were unfulfilled. as he aged, this percentage diminished. time and time again, santos was sat down and told the couple he had spent so much time with could not give him a home as they had told him. due to this, the young boy began to grow frustrated and confused, and feeling powerless, santos lashed out. he began to receive punishment for bad behavior in school, for getting into quarrels with the other children, and overall performing below average in terms of education and behavior. his chances continued to shrink. as he grew older, it all worsened, both his performance in school and his proneness to fights and arguments. santos would often come home with black eyes or busted lips, carrying within him a fire. the boy would never create a lasting/true bond with any foster parents or siblings he stayed with, seeing them all as temporary stops. any attempts to build a relationship with santos would result in him pushing away and becoming even more distant. due to this lack of any form of parental relationships, santos idolized his biological mom, which in turn led to santos' fascination with her religion and her language. this is where he read about spanish roman catholic saints and began to look up to them, as well as where he began to study spanish religiously.
as santos entered his teenage years, he began to build true friendships with a group of boys in his area that he would walk home from alternative school with. like him, they were prone to the same violence and all had stories similar to his own. at this same time, santos had begun attempts to run away from his foster homes, being placed in worse and worse ones in terms of neglect and disarray. he was caught time and time again, but by the age of 15, santos was pronounced a missing child. he found refuge in the friends he had made, who he discovered to be apart of a larger street gang. he stayed with them, and despite their violent and aggressive lifestyle, santos found true loyalty and brotherhood among them. they became his family. santos began to live in a life of drugs, sex, gang warfare, and pure aggression. he became accustomed to it quickly, and soon learned he had a certain skill for violence. it was not simply that he enjoyed it, but santos was inherently good at it.
santos grew especially close to two boys: ryder and deacon. ryder and he met in school, and he was one of the prominent reasons santos decided to join the gang. ryder was a fiery boy, with messy blonde hair and dark blue eyes like the ocean, he held santos' heard in his palm. the two were inseparable, and though their romantic relationship was very lowkey, their love for one another was anything but. deacon, on the other hand, joined the gang later on. he was a boy of about 12, with long messy hair and bright eyes. despite the boys' irritation with a kid around, deacon's stubbornness proved to even beat theirs, and his defiance was so great they couldn't held but admire. soon enough, the gang was teaching deacon all about the streets, and he came to know them just as well as the boys. he often ran errands for the boys, earning his nickname, "conejito," given by santos, which translates to "little rabbit," due to his small size and agility. deacon was a major help to them in reality, and he found a family in the gang. santos grew especially close with deacon, having dealt with younger kids his whole time spend in the system. he was more often than not, the one to grab deacon from any trouble and lecture his ear off, though not without deacon's adamant counterarguments. they were legendary at keeping an argument going, but they were extremely close. santos grew to teach deacon many life lessons and did his best to guide the boy. all three boys were tight-knit and became one another's family.
when santos was 18, the blackout hit. the gang was able to easily adapt, having already grown accustomed to a life of crime and survival. soon, though, the issue of desperation seeped into their plans. droughts of resources became a threat, and one night they planned to raid a convenience store within a rival gang's territory. despite it being thoroughly planned, the night quickly turned sour. warfare broke out, and in the end, the rival gang raided the store instead after shooting 5 members of santos' group down. of them all, santos was the lone survivor of the group that attacked. of these losses, ryder was one of them, santos' closest friend/love interest. the two were extremely close, and santos loved ryder, though he had not explored his sexuality yet, so the duo's love for one another was cloaked and unspoken. santos sat in the destroyed convenience store with ryder as he bled out, surrounded by his dead and dying friends. after this, santos became reckless and dangerously violent, so much so that one night, the remnants of the gang abandoned him, seeing him as a threat to their safety. ever since, santos has been fending for himself in the apocalypse of the world, before joining the badlands.
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