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HEAVEN’S TEARS ON STAINED MARBLE,
ever drowning in starlight tragedies . . .


Also known as Caelum / James / CJ(P) - Agender ( Any pronouns ) - Seventeen - BearBones' Star Child - Gemini - Lawful Neutral - Passionate writer, coder, and graphic editor - Avatar and coding and graphic on signature are created by me; writing on signature is inspired by Grimdark’s aesthetics; please do not use them —————————————————————————

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how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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NIKITA ENGEL aka PANDORA , an anarchist .
  • previously SIDESTEP , a vigilante / independent hero .
  • a seasoned , streetwise tactician with blue eyes and shorter , neat wavy blond hair . freckles cover his face and body ; angular face , deep shadows under eyes . nondescript street-wear is his go-to fashion choice . he is around average height ( 5'9" ) .
  • trans man ( he/him ) && bisexual , biromantic .
  • pandora's suit is equipped with armor ( shielding ) , jump-jets , and enhanced speed . the suit is " a shadow with a mirror for a face , " mysterious and featureless . pandora had a cape , but lady argent stole it , and it is now part of her outfit .
STATS @ END OF REBIRTH:
strength of mind: 73% && subtle manipulations: 63%
armor status and 100% ; no repairs needed . standard of living is comfortable ; embezzles the rich .
* infamy ( high # ) vs. obscurity ( low # ): 36%
* arrogance vs. anonymity: 28%
* ruthlessness vs. empathy: 18%
* daring vs. caution: 36%

SAOIRSE , the main puppet .
saoirse is a tall and elegent mixed woman in her twenties with black eyes and wavy rose gold hair that is cut into a bob style . she trains with jogging .

RELATIONSHIPS @ END OF REBIRTH:
nikita's relationship with ortega ( male ro ) is complicated . 88%
saoirse's relationship with ortega is flirty . 78%
saorise has a friendship with dr. mortum ( male ro ) . 46%
nikita's relationship with lady argent is neutral . 37%
nikita and mashal steel ( chen ) are former allies , despite being distant . 40%
nikita's relationship with herald is distant . 20%

tw: suicidal thoughts and actions described .
* during the heartbreak incident , nikita put a gun to his mouth . he will never forget that taste and the weight of metal on his tongue .
* the heartbreak incident left deep scars in nikita , alienating him from everyone else ; sometimes he doesn't know why he's still here ; he's never felt right since ; he longs to inflict the same pain on the ones responsible for his own ; and he will feel the gaping hole the heartbreak incident left inside of him if it's the last thing he does .
* nikita told his therapist he thinks about ending his own life at times .

STATS @ END OF RETRIBUTION ( NOT FINAL STAGE OF BOOK ; STILL IN THE WORKS , SO THESE STATS PROBABLY AREN'T FINAL ):
pandora is known as a meddler and rabble-rouser , who's infamy vs. obscurity is 30% .
nikita / pandora is wealthy and living in a comfortable apartment , stealing from other villains to earn their wage .
* arrogance vs. anonymity: 25%
* ruthlessness vs. empathy: 18%
* daring vs. caution: 35%

RELATIONSHIPS @ END OF RETRIBUTION:
nikita's relationship with ortega is complicated . they kissed in the hospital elevator , and ortega talked nikita into seeing a psychiatrist . 91%
saoirse has no relationship with ortega .  78%
nikita / pandora revealed himself to dr. mortum , and revealed that they are saoirse . 31%
nikita revealed he is pandora to lady argent , and their relationship is amiable . they kissed . 37% . argent's interest in pandora is 58% .
nikita's relationship with marshal steel ( chen ) is friendly . they bond over loving dogs . 76%
nikita thinks herald is hot and is Scared of his attraction towards him , and herald obviously feels the same way . nikita is training herald . 77%

** i'm saving all of this here so i can Always have it lmao . also so i can mayhaps write some Fic . i was gonna put this in a spoiler but it fricked up the formatting and that Bothers me .
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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Re: ' ❛ home ❜
« Reply #78 on: May 14, 2019, 06:08:53 PM »
in honor of that beautiful buddie hug we got , i'm gonna change my name on here to buddie , make my icon the buddie hug , and change my siggy to lyrics of one of the songs i'm going to put on the playlist i'm going to make for them . (:
     * edit: i'm keeping my siggy bc i love it too much but

& i'm gonna give buckley ( i need to change his name again bc that's just gonna get confusing af ) his rightfully deserved ryan guzman boyfriend .
« Last Edit: May 14, 2019, 06:20:36 PM by buddie »
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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me , face in full clown makeup with my clown wig and clown nose on
wow i love buddie and their son , christopher
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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Re: ' ❛ home ❜
« Reply #80 on: May 14, 2019, 09:29:49 PM »
polar kaiser armour .
  • nineteen years old . demiguy ( he/they ; couldn't care less ) .
i don't know where i'll put him yet , or if i'll even Actually put him anywhere , but *shrug* Anyway , he used to be that sweet kid that was picked on by everyone , including his parents , for being too soft and naive because of how kind he sweet he was to everyone ; he'd let everyone step all over him .

he was about eight or nine when the blackout hit , and he and his younger deaf brother rarely went outside after that , their parents keeping them holed up in their house most of the time . their lives were pretty uneventful until they moved on to their father's cabin , traveling a few days on foot to get there , and they came across a few difficulties like other people , but they were able to get to the cabin , in the end , and they started to grow their own food , chopped their own wood , etc. their parents were well-versed in " end of the world " tactics .

their parents went out on a supply run ( for medical supplies and other shit they may need ) when polar was thirteen and his brother was twelve , and they never came back , leaving polar and his brother , landry , to their own devices . this was around the time polar started to become more aggressive and irritable , and he and his brother , who used to be two peas in a pod , grew distant . when polar was seventeen , his brother sixteen , the latter ran off after a particularly heated argument , and polar hasn't seen him since . he would never admit it , but he misses the hell out of him , and is very worried for him .

note: his parents weren't the best , didn't really talk to him much and gave most of their good attention to landry . when they did give him attention , it was because he made a mistake or smth , and they always gave him a slap on the wrist and put him down verbally ; they always made him feel like he was nothing but stupid and a horrible kid .
  • tw: self harm & self-destructive actions .
polar has self-harmed ( digging his nails into his skin , punching walls n shit to purposely get bruises and scrapes / cuts , burning himself with cigarettes , etc. ) since he was thirteen . it's not difficult for him to get overwhelmed with emotion , especially anger , and he often goes into self-destructive mode , and it's a form of self-punishment for , essentially , feeling emotions .
  • now .
since his brother was deaf , he had to learn sign language at a very young age , and he's fluent . he sometimes catches himself still speaking in sign language ( while also speaking verbally ) , even if he is talking to a hearing person . it's out of habit , because his brother was the only person he was around ( other than his parents ) for a very long period of time , and he just got used to using sign language every time he communicated .

his voice is kind of quiet , when he speaks verbally , too , although it's still obvious when he's irritated , because his voice gets lower and / or quieter , and if he's signing , it'll be more fervently . sometimes he'll just not speak verbally at all , even if the person he's communicating with doesn't know what he's trying to say , and he'll often to this on purpose if he's pissed off / upset enough .

he can be very flirty , mostly with woman , because he's still in denial of his sexuality ( he's gay ) .

he's very blunt and abrasive , and doesn't really ever think completely before he speaks , or even does at times . it's partially recklessness due to his lack of care for himself , but he's also a very cynical person , and doesn't truly care about many other people / doesn't care if he's upsetting them or putting them in danger ( this definitely depends on the person , his mood , and how he feels about said person , though ) . he kind of has a lack of tact and can be very insensitive .

there are times he just kinda isolates himself , but if someone does speak to him or something , he'll just answer in nods or shrugs and look completely out of it . he'll just want to sleep , and can get very irritated , but at the same time feels completely numb , and he doesn't speak or move much .
  • skills / weapons .
his weapon of choice would probably be a baseball bat ( stainless steel ) that he used to play baseball with his brother with . he also has a pocketknife or two .

he's the best at running , to be honest ; he's fast and agile as hell , and he can climb a tree like a goddamn pro if he needs to ( or wants to ; he loves climbing trees and just sitting up on a branch and reading or sketching ) . he's not the best with firearms and definitely does not know how to use throwing knives like , at all , but he's semi-okay with hand-to-hand combat ( he has a mean punch , but he lacks tactic or , yk , skill ) .
  • appearance .
his hair used to be longer , but he chopped it off so it's pretty short , now , and it's a darker brown-ish . his eyes are Blue , and he's average height , probably around 5'10" , with a lean-ish build , if not kinda lanky . his left ear is pierced with a small hoop , and no tattoos . he has a few hands scars from where he dug his nails in too deep , and a burn scar on his wrist and a few on his thighs . his knuckles are probably always at least irritated and red , if not scraped up .

face claim: toby wallace
« Last Edit: May 14, 2019, 09:31:55 PM by buddie »
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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im gonna play fallen hero for the thousandth time w/ a new babe bc i'm still not completely satisfied yEET
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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     i  can't  do  this  .  they  can't  know  .     
     they  don't  have  to  know  .  i  can't  just  walk  away  from  this  .     
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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i'll most likely change his icon when i get home , i dunno how i like this one / the quality of it . still gotta figure out a signature n stuff , too . i still dunno if i'll actually put him anywhere yet but *shrug* just in case , yk ?

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oof i actually kinda like that icon & the quality isn't bad like i thought
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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outfit aesthetic: polar armour , pt. 1
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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outfit aesthetic: polar armour , pt. 2
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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we share this hurt , we share the pain ; all of our dirt is washed in the rain . we've walked that road , we've felt that shame . times , they are changin' .
YOU ARE , YOU ARE SAFE WITH ME .

DEDICATED TO everyone who has stuck with me , through thick and thin , and to everyone who's ever felt like they were trekking their storms alone -- because we love you , i love you , and you're not alone .
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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i'm going to make that into a bigger post soon in a thread i'm gonna make . because i'm feeling emotional tonight , bois
how is it so easy for you to be kind to people he asked
milk and honey dripped from my lips as i answered
cause people have not been kind to me     (  r.k.  )

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HEAVEN’S TEARS ON STAINED MARBLE,
ever drowning in starlight tragedies . . .


Also known as Caelum / James / CJ(P) - Agender ( Any pronouns ) - Seventeen - BearBones' Star Child - Gemini - Lawful Neutral - Passionate writer, coder, and graphic editor - Avatar and coding and graphic on signature are created by me; writing on signature is inspired by Grimdark’s aesthetics; please do not use them —————————————————————————