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GRENADE JUMPER // MEETING [08/30]
« on: August 30, 2019, 05:08:34 PM »
      tw. mention of death, mention of murder, grief, suicidal thoughts.

What the fuck were the five stages of grief? In Silas' mind, he'd die grieving. Sure, his moping about and erratic mood changes were exhausting the group, but he couldn't help but feel he'd die with a broken heart. But, he was beginning to accept that. He'd done a terrible thing, a thing so treacherous, barbaric and definitely necessary to protect his people. But, he'd killed his fucking sister - that was blood on his hands. Silas doubted he'd ever get over it, reliving the trauma every night when he went to sleep because the memory was etched in the backs of his eyelids. He'd no longer sleep, evident by sagging dark eyes and dull skin which looked like it could do with some tender loving care from Silas. But, he'd push aside his needs. He didn't have a choice.

If there was such thing as this five stages of grief, he'd like to say that he was reaching the end of this relentless journey. The initial numbness had eventually passed, watching her body float away down the river as the sun slowly crept into the sky. Their final goodbye. Denial sunk in, although he'd been the one to pull the trigger and watch the life drain from her eyes. There were times he'd thought he'd seen her, he'd heard her voice, but she was never to be seen again.

Next came the anger, everyone avoiding Silas because one word could trigger him to lash out, snarl vicious words their way before slipping back into solitude. He was angry at himself, angry at the world for being so cruel to him. Angry for Kai and his fucking little cultist minions for brainwashing his precious sister.

Then charging in came the what ifs. What if Silas never pulled the trigger? Would she have killed him? What if he'd killed Wynter instead? Or Anna? Would things have been different. What if Silas did pull the trigger when he turned that pistol on himself? Oh, how things could've panned out so differently. A part of him wished to have done so, quivering finger over the trigger just too afraid to free the world of a man so vile and wicked. He could've done the world a favor. He felt a profound sense of wondering, of bargaining with himself. How things could've been so different if he made another move that night.

But, he couldn't change the past, couldn't change the ending of a beautifully tragic life. And so, next came the depression. The hurt which ached through bone and cartilage. The grief and lack of motivation. Barely able to take care of his son nor the little girl Ruby left behind. Ruby really wasn't coming back. Little did he know that all of this helped towards acceptance.

Not accepting that he was all right with the loss. In fact, quite the opposite. Accepting that what had happened had indeed happened, and that Ruby was gone. She wasn't returning. There was a time where one had to simply try and continue with their life, despite the hurt they felt. As for Silas, it was finally time for him to attempt to get on with things.

Brock had insisted so gallant and kind that Silas ought to have some time off just to gather his thoughts. And so, off the two men went on a fishing trip. Silas knew fuck all about fish and trying to catch one, but Brock appeared to be a master angler, plus it simply felt right to look up to the older man. Silas had him to thank for being a pillar of strength when Silas had been reduced to nothing but dust.

Now, they had returned. Having time to just sit and be with nature, open up to Brock and talk about the more impenetrable conversations in life, Silas had to admit that it'd been therapeutic and helped him on the road to recovering after the loss. And now, returning to Bluestem Prairie, Silas would try to continue life without his little sister.

❝ Y'all gonna just stand about like feral lil gremlin people? C'mon over for a fuckin' meetin'. ❞ Silas chided as he sauntered towards the bonfire, gesturing for people to come over. Maybe he was coming across too strongly? Too rudely? Ahh, fuck it - he couldn't give a flying fuckity fuck anymore.

// the only important part is the last paragraph!! the rest is basically to catch up on silas' whereabouts recently EEP

Spoiler: tags :: updated 07/20 • show
basics.
♛ silas porter overton // sy, overton, dipshit
♛ male // he/him
♛ twenty five // ages real time // born fifteenth april
♛ leader of bluestem prairie
♛ formerly member of camp apocalypse
♛ formerly right hand man in children of abaddon
♛ established BP - fifth march 2039

appearance.
faceclaim - evan peters
voice claim - evan peters (tw. blood & gore in video)
♛ 5'11ft // under-worked frame // slightly paunchy
♛ dark chocolate eyes and disheveled brunet hair
♛ physical health - 100% // current injuries: none
♛ mental health - 95% // suffers paranoia and delusions of grandeur

personality.
♛ impetuous, spontaneous and hostile
♛ volatile, overemotional // acts rashly
♛ very loud // loves to hear the sound of his own voice
♛ pompous and overly confident // sees himself as number one
♛ assertive and knows exactly how to get what he wants
♛ outspoken and extroverted // stormy personality
♛ playfully chaotic // enjoys having fun whilst tearing the world apart
♛ cunning and slimy // hard to work out what his intentions are
♛ low self-esteem yet hides this through over-confidence
♛ intelligent and caring to those who can see passed his bullish semblance
♛ scarily loyal towards his favorite people
♛ embarrassingly flirtatious // flirts with anything that moves
♛ clownish and sees most serious matters lightheartedly // immature

relationships.
♛ james overton x nadia overton // whereabouts unknown
♛ six siblings // three brothers & three sisters
♛ bisexual biromantic
♛ crushing on anna // on and off relationship with her
♛ has an eight year old son, riley james // known as james
♛ has adopted his niece, scout, after killing ruby
♛ owns two chickens // marilee & zelda
♛ owns four dogs // ghost, fang, bandit and jekyll
♛ owns three horses // tinker, rawhide and tex

interaction.
storage // plot
♛ physically: hard // mentally: hard
♛ very strategic // usually has an ulterior motive
♛ unpredictable - dangerous with a gun & explosives
♛ cares very little about ending lives for his own gain
EVERY BODY IN THE WORLD KNOWS I'M A LITTLE TWISTED
I'M UNCONTROLLABLE, EMOTIONAL, I'M CRAZY
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Re: GRENADE JUMPER // MEETING [08/30]
« Reply #1 on: August 31, 2019, 11:20:00 AM »

he was back.

roman watched with a stoic, blank slate of emotion, frosty eyes following the man as he wandered closer towards the bonfire. if he had been gone for peace and relaxation, it obviously must not have worked. the leader was coming off like an asshole… either that or he was finally seeing the usual side of silas. others around him appeared relatively unfazed as they wandered over. roman would be no different.

he glanced around before sitting down on a log, looking about at the rest of the group. mateo was there, wyn, too-- wyn looking a bit more worried for his brother than the rest of the group. that was only to be expected, he supposed. the whole family must be taking it pretty hard, he pointed out to himself.

his gaze wandered back to land on silas, looking at the man who had gone with brock, of all people. left mateo in charge. did this mean that brock and silas were one in the same, more similar, closer than roman had anticipated? it left a bad feeling pitted in his chest, unsure about how to feel about that. he knew people - knew them well enough not to trust brock, and well enough to know mateo shouldn’t be a man in charge.

guess he’d just wait it out. figure out what bluestem really was hiding.

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Re: GRENADE JUMPER // MEETING [08/30]
« Reply #2 on: September 04, 2019, 07:51:19 AM »
      Silas carded his fingers through his hair, bloodied knuckles disappearing briefly through locks of curly brown hair. ❝ A’right so... Let’s begin. Firstly, ‘M back from my trip. Hope Mateo over ‘ere wasn’t too painful to have to listen to. ❞ He commented dismissively, tipping his head to the side to briefly connect his gaze with Mateo before looking away once more. If it’d been his choice, Mateo would have been the very last person Silas would ever fucking pick to look after Bluestem whilst he was away. Oh well, nobody burned the place down whilst Silas was away so Mateo must’ve done something right.

Moving on - ❝ We was invited to the Badlands for some... Vow renewal or whatever. Y’all acted on your best behaviour, which was all dandy. ❞ Silas didn’t really have any opinions on the whole wedding, which was surprising to say the least. It’d been more or less pleasant, although reuniting with Colton wasn’t exactly on his agenda that day.

He paused to think, pathetically gesturing his hands about in thought. ❝ Uhh.... Welcome to Bluestem, Frankie. She’s m’best friend so don’t mess her about, right? ❞ And then, after a second of looking across at those who attended the meeting. ❝ Last of all, I want y’all to get involved in weekly chores. For those not participating, maybe y’all can think of being a little more productive around ‘ere. This ain’t no hotel where y’all can slack off - shit needs doin’. And with that, meeting’s dismissed. ❞

Spoiler: tags :: updated 07/20 • show
basics.
♛ silas porter overton // sy, overton, dipshit
♛ male // he/him
♛ twenty five // ages real time // born fifteenth april
♛ leader of bluestem prairie
♛ formerly member of camp apocalypse
♛ formerly right hand man in children of abaddon
♛ established BP - fifth march 2039

appearance.
faceclaim - evan peters
voice claim - evan peters (tw. blood & gore in video)
♛ 5'11ft // under-worked frame // slightly paunchy
♛ dark chocolate eyes and disheveled brunet hair
♛ physical health - 100% // current injuries: none
♛ mental health - 95% // suffers paranoia and delusions of grandeur

personality.
♛ impetuous, spontaneous and hostile
♛ volatile, overemotional // acts rashly
♛ very loud // loves to hear the sound of his own voice
♛ pompous and overly confident // sees himself as number one
♛ assertive and knows exactly how to get what he wants
♛ outspoken and extroverted // stormy personality
♛ playfully chaotic // enjoys having fun whilst tearing the world apart
♛ cunning and slimy // hard to work out what his intentions are
♛ low self-esteem yet hides this through over-confidence
♛ intelligent and caring to those who can see passed his bullish semblance
♛ scarily loyal towards his favorite people
♛ embarrassingly flirtatious // flirts with anything that moves
♛ clownish and sees most serious matters lightheartedly // immature

relationships.
♛ james overton x nadia overton // whereabouts unknown
♛ six siblings // three brothers & three sisters
♛ bisexual biromantic
♛ crushing on anna // on and off relationship with her
♛ has an eight year old son, riley james // known as james
♛ has adopted his niece, scout, after killing ruby
♛ owns two chickens // marilee & zelda
♛ owns four dogs // ghost, fang, bandit and jekyll
♛ owns three horses // tinker, rawhide and tex

interaction.
storage // plot
♛ physically: hard // mentally: hard
♛ very strategic // usually has an ulterior motive
♛ unpredictable - dangerous with a gun & explosives
♛ cares very little about ending lives for his own gain
EVERY BODY IN THE WORLD KNOWS I'M A LITTLE TWISTED
I'M UNCONTROLLABLE, EMOTIONAL, I'M CRAZY
[ BP ♚ @truce. ♚ bio ]